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Ok, here is some thing alot of you do not know about me. I enjoy "Westerns". I really did as kid. So now that old love of mine is coming back. I'm going to try to write a western comic. It's really odd. Cause I have not really watched one in a while.  but yeah wish me luck. and if there are any western flims, books, or info you can find that you think will help. I would love to have it. I'll post the idea for the book at some point.

Dear Bills,

 Why must you be the screen door to my submarine?

while you are talking to someone you have put in lyrics from any talking head song (any song will do).

Do some thing you have never done before but always wanted to.

Saturday night : drinks with alfred at mars, then food with alfred at 3rd where  we chilled with my step-brother.

Sunday : New Fucking Star Trek. This was  a great movie. If you like Star Trek  you will like this movie. If you do not like Star Trek you will like this movie. With in the first 5 mins. you go from almost crying to  " Wow ! I wish I was that bad ass when I was younger!" This movie blew me away.

Today: Work (now) after that Beer.
 
Tuesday : Movie night. Better be good Mike

Wensday : Philly here I come.

Thrusday : I have no idea

Friday-Sunday : Atlantic City here I come.

All I can thinking about is just writing.  Writing comics.  All I can do is think about what I would if they would let me do this or let me do that. Is this my calling. Not sure. I'm at the point where i think  I'm going to fill a note book with a few short stories. And then send them in. other then that every thing is going ok for the most part.

I really should be working right. I did not want to come in today. Not that I do not like the job. Just that I wish I could have stayed at James and Erin's today. Also got a new phone last night. LG Voyger. I Love it. So for those that need it. 1-804-551-3634. And I was trying to get as close to a 555 number but 552-554 did not show up.

I was in a dress and Drunk.  I was a mess. I have not been that drunk in a while. I do not even remeber getting home or leaveing Fallout. Ahh life. Pics will be up at some point.

So Monday moring will be my first day  doing data entry for the Virginia general assembly.  Yes some thing good have happen for me. I know I worry alot and that makes others worry about me. But back to the job. I will be starting first thing Monday morning. I find it a bit odd for me to have a job with like the higher ups of this State walking around.

 So yes this means new car and cell phone really soon. I'm thinking Iphone just to say I have one. OH! I did go see Watchmen. It was fucking great, even with the changes.


 

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very very …. mad world … mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very very … Mad World … Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World

Think of one time you really enjoyed my company? If we have not hanged out be for make some thing up I guess?

 Some times music just says it better.

 I think I ask for this. You know i'm tried of having the things i liked being picked on. I'm sorry you know what I have some thing to say. So fuck off. I'm tried of feeling fucking 2nd class. Like what the fuck.

So this is pissing me off a bit. We have tons of  great actors of color. There are enough of them that have the money to be movers and shakers in some places. So why is it that only Tyler Perry is the only person to bring a show about a black family to tv. Wait....I'm sorry he should not count cause he just reuse the same thing  they have done for the past 20 years. Only thing that is different is that he is dressed up as some fat black lady.
  I mean come on give me some thing good and new. Take Ugly Betty. For the most part the show is about fasion and a girl trying to make it in a world that says she is ugly and can not be there. It has a heavy Latin and Hispanic  parts to the show. And has a Latin family as a backdrop. But where is this for say blacks or asian people. All I'm asking is it so wrong to show a family of color on a tv show that are not just  same over worked dad, worried mom, smart older kid 1, warm- hearted kid 2 and the others. Or if you are going to do that.  Then at least make them a bit more. Give them some thing really to deal with.  I mean the writers are there. They all work on every other major show.

Sorry I just had to vent.

 So as of late. I have been staying with a buddy from high school. It's going ok .. but I'm starting to go a bit crazy. We on the job front. I will be working event staff for shows pretty soon. So yeah.  Thinking about living with James and Erin. But I would need a car. I need one any way. So that pretty much that is going on.

 Ashtrays and Shot glasses is an idea for a book of short stories.  Most of the people in the book will do one or both drink and smoke. It's more of away to set a mood . But this idea came to me one night.  I was sitting at James' house when it came to me. How alot of important things in our life happen while we are doing things. Things that we do at parties, or coming home and relaxing  from a long day of work.



 The Outing:

              Bamm. Was the sound of the glasses hitting the wooden table. The sounds of the bar seem to fill my ears again  as my dad light his third cigarette. "As I was saying son, your mother and I are bit worried about you." I really did not hear him. I was a bit off about  being here. Dad had always came to Merlotte's by himself. I once made a joke about him buying True blood but he did not get it. " Hey are you listing to me son?" he asked. " Yeah dad, I'm listing. Just what do you want to talk to me about? Is this about  car?"

  " No Jason this is not about the car" as he blew out smoke from his mouth. " Son, I know it's been a while since me and you..." 
" You and I dad, It's you and i" i jumped in to say.
" Right smart ass. You and I had a good heart to heart. Well any way your mother had told me a few things about you. And I did not want to rush to any thing. And I wanted to let you know that you could tell me any thing." I looked at him as the waitress came with more beers and a few more shots.  I down the beers and took another shot. I knew where this was going. I really did not want it to head that way. "Son is there any thing you would like to say to me?  He gave that look that a dad gives a son when he is truly worried. It seemed a big creepy cause of the light  from the huge tv that was behind us. Or it could have been the shots of rum. I'm really not sure. But I knew the next words out of his mouth. " Let me stop you right now dad." I just could do this right now and nor could I do it here.  " Jason, if you are gay...I'm cool with it."
" Times have change and all. And you have to be your own person. And I hope you meet some nice guy that will treat you right and all that stuff. I just want you to be happy that is all."

I tried so hard not to laugh. But it was to funny. " Dad" I took another shot " I'm not gay." " But Ashley is. I have not had a girl since I have been back from London cause I left my heart there. It was broken by a girl that I do not think I will forget." He looked at me. "Wait, Your sister is gay?"

"Yes she is dad." With a smile on my face.  " Now are you going to pass one of those death-sticks or not?"




as you can see it is a bit rough. but it will be a book filled with different stories.

 Some how in this place I'm in. I have gotten the will to write again. I have tons of ideas and each day they just come out of me. I hope my laptop is fixed. I need to have a good three hours of writing. These stories range from the life and times of a kid living a southern town to end of the world super hero stuff. I think the next post on here might be something from this one idea I have.

 Ok, new year is coming up and I'm shit out of luck. Right now I'm not working and I was just kicked out of my house on Monday. It's whatever. I can make it without my family. It was just years of crap that came to a head. I have taken alot of their crap for a few years. So yeah as long as I have my buddies. I have some jobs looking my way. I'm just going to work every thing out. So fuck you 08. hello  09 please be a better year. Also I'll new prez. wants to give us all like 3,000 buck.  Kick ass!!

 Wow, I have not been on here in a while. I feel the need to do some thing. I'm not sure what it is. Going to be getting alot of hours at fye soon. But I still need a better paying job. Also I think I need out of the U.S. for a bit. Might talk to Rozgirl about me chilling with her in the land down under for a bit.  My mother knows some people who are in the grahpic art world. She might hook me up with a job some where. God that would be nice a really job. Or school so I can get a real job.

   Ummmmm love life........i'm not even going there.

So I did not get the job I was trying to go for at the bookstore. That in it self has it's own story. (to long, and to tried to tell). On top of this I'm moving in with my mom again. I love the woman I do but ...yeah we should not live together. So I'm going to see if I can move out from her place with in two or three months.  But that is if I last that long. Anyway how about some fun news. This weekend I went to Fallout back to back. God that was  a nice break. Just to go in and have fun. I love that place. (would move in if I could)

  First there was Video-game night .....I was an npc (a few people got it) Got to talk to a few cool new people. Then Saturday came around. It was pjs party that night. It was fun to walk around in my boxers all night.  So about around 2:30am the best part of the night happen. Fallout's lockin. Ok so Jim, Jaz (the nut-Kicker) , and myself go get our sleeping gear.(sleeping bags, food, and booze)  We come back into the club to see a huge screen of anal sex. (yeah it was like that) as we move around we find more free booze and food and soda. Every on is now in their undies. The music comes back on and we act as if nothing happen. Lots of drinking, lots of playing wii, and then out of nowhere.....people having sex. It really did hit me for a shock. Only cause they where in the chair next to me. I was like. I think we left about 7am. I slep most of sunday away.

Oh.....I must say this good bye Greoge Carlins and Micheal Turner. Both great artist.  You guys will be missed